Sunday, October 5, 2008
why didn't i visit her yesterday??why didn't i visit her after work??
why didn't i make full use of the last wk wif her??
why do ppl oli noe wad to treasure aft losing dem??
everything is so sudden...
she was discharged ytd...
she was at home today...
she had left us today...
i'm so useless not able to do anithing for her...
i'm so unfilial to not visit her for the past week...
i'm so idiotic to go out wif sterrs- instead of visiting her...
i'm super super 2pid to not visit when i hav the tym...
now everything is gone.
in just less than 24hrs.
n i'm not by her side.
i've not been by her side for a single moment.
i'm a medical student...
i should noe that septicemia is very serious...
i should noe that by seeing her on the IVT and anitibiotic drip...
but i'm so stupid to actually believe wad the nurse told mi...
and i so sorry for believing it...
i'm having a great tym wif sterrs- ytd.
yet i didn't realise her suffering due to mi absence...
i should hav visited her b4 mting sterrs-.
yet i chose to stay at hm n rest...
now she's gone, forever gone...
with nt a single look at mi for the last tym, n nt a single look for mi at her.
why do mi tears keep flowing out??
i do not feel anithing inside mi...
but tears are flowing out...
i think there's sth wrong wif mi eyes...
it shouldn't hav so much water as i hav dry eyes...
i'm sorry for nt being dere.. 미안해요,사랑해요.
rest in peace
