well... he had this "hu r u?" look on his face... & wad happened after dat was so damn embarrassing!!!

he told the other person on the fone to wait, & was waiting for mi 2 say sth... but all i said was: 

" hello!! bye!!" 

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wad m i doing??? i dunno... guess i'm going crazy... after so much dat has happened... get well soon... if u ever pass away, our family will b worst den b4... i guess we'll nt even mt during chinese new year if u were to pass away... mi family will split!!! n dats wad i hate most... nw dat sgss is gone, i have no place to seek refuge... dere's no place dat i can go when i feel lik crying, when i dun feel lik going hm, when i just wan a break frm all dis things... i'm scared of turning back into the old mi, the quiet and anti-social mi, but everything is nt going according to wad i expect... mi frens r leaving mi, u r leaving mi, n i'm leaving mi... i'm scared of the tears dat comes everynite in the old mi... but no 1 noes wad will happen in the future, i'm oso scared of the nw mi when i started to sense the change... mayb, its just better to return to the old mi...